Well...I can safely say that the previous month was better, y'know, the first plan that I wanted to do on the previous two news post are honestly done and good for me, and the fact that I approved college that month, and I'm honestly happy about that, and that can means that I will finally plan and do some stuff problem in time, but something happened later that month that I noticed myself that I want to solve as fast as I can, before things gets worse.

The first one is honestly about my lungs, I feel like I don't breath that good anymore because of the excess of mucus that I have to deal in my nose, the second one is my liver not working correctly as I wanted to, since every time I do some workout, or simply eating much, that liver hurts like hell, atleast I have a recipe of what to do there...

Now...The third one...I went to a hospital when I felt my eyes with more pain as they usually go, with more pain on the light on my computer or something similar like the those college lights, when it was my turn I said what it was my problem with my eyes and everything...and the doctor simply said this. "look, you need to do an appointment because your case tells me that you need glasses"...

...I'm honestly thankful that I can do something more proper this new month, because I'm honestly scared by those three facts alone, specially that first one...Just by thinking about it is enough to do something fast before it's too late...

...But anyways, here's the things that i've done on the thing that I said before:

The first drawing says "I approved motherfucker :,)", and here's the cabin without those two https://files.catbox.moe/6mvnqe.jpg

Welp...Till the next month I supposed.

So...I honestly don't know what to say right now...

The past month was pretty shitty to me (as always), feeling more alone that I was the past year. It's honestly very harmful to me by living like this, it feels like I'm dragging myself for the worst despite not doing anything wrong (I hope), and I mostly blame for one problem, the internal one at this point looks more hopeful than the external one as of now, even if it's just a tiny, minuscular, and miserable bit.

And even then, I just want to do the thing that I said on the first news post, since...I will explain it via a tip:

"Don't share your personal problems to random users kids"

It's honestly bafling to me that I have more hope to fix the internal problem than the external one, seriously, I am just shocked by that fact alone...

P.D: I will still post some art, so don't worry too much about me. Infact here's a simple wip of a intentional "lost anime found" reference

The eyes of the drawing are tweaked and better, but anyways. bye.

...Quien lo diria...

Sooo...This year was mostly normally fine to me, with my usual stuff being fine here and there, until something bad happened in october to turn this year into one of the worst years ever, both internally and externally.

And I've made some mistakes here and there since both mistakes (that I will not explain here) really got me for the worst...And to be honest, I just feel like a genuine asshole despite both mistakes not were made by me (atleast I hope so).

The only thing that I want to do the next year at this point is to simply clarify some stuff with two people internally, and...I honestly don't know what to properly do externally, but even with many thing affecting me negatively, I just want to do something before things gets worse on my end (if they aren't already...).

...So, the only thing that I have to say right now is to Hope for the best. And happy new year if you stumble uppon this lonely post :)